for felix II

save your thanks and find that eternity is fatal for us all I would rather be a flash in the dark so that it would seem like a summer day even if the stars still shone nothing is given freely not fate or the rawness of your being and belief has no place in the …

Over the edge

He jumps. First, a jack knife, then, he curls into a ball, like an infant in the womb. He closes his eyes, and finds calm. The wind reminds him… Screaming to god. Terror fills him. He knows he is done. Asking for salvation and forgiveness. Begging to take it all back.

Little Beetle

Following a little beetle as it moved with purpose, I wondered about it’s red markings and shiny black shell, while it led me around the driveway. I thought, “it is funny that I am being led by this little bug”, as it scurried along it’s way. And I questioned it, aloud, what it though about …

Abstract Concept(ion)

I am the product of drunken sex, of parents that never knew love and a childhood laced with pain. Never a place to call home, my parent’s marriage quickly broken. Memories are all that remain. Forward moving, I build from the remains and find validation in the act of sex, never realizing that I am …

Hesitation

I woke up this morning, still at odds   with myself. Went through the routine of a work day. Until I got to the stop light. My mind somewhere else, I was stopped, across the line, in the     center of the intersection. How did I ended up here;     was it by chance? did I do it …

Cast Away

So hollow and alone, a shell washed up on a deserted beach. The waves pushing it farther from the embrace of the ocean, further from all this carapace has ever known. Once home to a life, now extinguished, never again the same. Time will wear it away, the sun bleaching colors until only fragments remain, …